Friday, 13 October 2017

Paint it black

As most of you know by now, I am on sick leave due to anxiety and panic attacks. I am trying to get myself out of this funk. I think I am doing better than I was a couple of weeks ago. I am trying really hard to focus on the positive. Getting up in the morning and finding motivation to do anything is hard.Yes, I know, I am NOT a morning person but this time, it is different. It feels like I am slipping away and I don't want to feel that way so I set goals and try to do at least 3 things in one day, otherwise, I feel like a complete loser and then, this whole vicious circle starts. I don't want that!!!

The main goal I have for myself is to get better, not get worst! I have been forcing myself to shower, get dressed, and put on makeup everyday because this is one thing that makes me feel better about myself. Like always, while I do feel slightly uncomfortable posting about these things online, I have been doing so because there is so much stigma associated with mental illness and I think we should be more open about it. Even I can be closed minded at times and I think it is very positive to speak up! Since I have been so verbal about my experiences, you have no idea how many people have come to me (either in real life or online) to thank me. So many people have battled an invisible illness and they ended up feeling isolated because of it. This makes me feel sad, therefore, I will continue doing what I do best: putting my own two cents in!!!!

Now back to my story, I remembered an unopened box of black hairdye that I had around the house for about a year now. The red was fun while it lasted but I thought "why the hell, now?" and I must admit, I feel so much better. I feel like "me" again! I even found an unopened purple eyeshadow I bought eons ago. I figured this would be the best time to use it.It is amazing what some "new" makeup and a change of hair colour can do!

P.S. Happy Friday the 13th!






8 comments:

  1. Love it! Nothing like a crisp black. I too have black dye sitting around but for some reason haven't used. Sending positive vibes!

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  2. Black: The color of sunshine and happiness. XD

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  3. As much as I love red hair, it always required a lot of care and specialty products to keep it from fading and turning brassy on me. You are looking great back in black! (((Hugs)))

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  4. Your hair looks great and I love that skelly hand barrette! Sending you best wishes and hugs that every day you will start to feel a little better.

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  5. Loving the black hair on you! Glad you are feeling even just a little better. (*hug*)

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  6. My natrural hair colour through I hate looking at it. I'm too lazy to dye it. Now, I wanna go back to red.lol I The black does suit you.

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  7. Oh, wow. I swear, one day I'm going to write my own story about hair and depression. When will I ever start my goth blog? Anyway, you look great and I bet you feel better too!

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  8. I know how hard anxiety makes life! You have to try so much harder to do “normal” things! Remember fighting every day makes you a super hero! Dressing up does help me feel better too! You are gorgeous! Sending all the love!

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