Wednesday, 22 November 2017

Bad Ass Baking Bitch, my life as a stay-at-home mom

As most as you have probably read, I quit my job recently. It was not an easy decision for me. I worked at the same place for six years, made numerous friends who got to see my son Philip grow up (hell, some of them have pictures of him at their workstation) and I changed a lot there myself.

Whether you quit or get fired from a job, it often feels like a breakup. I know it sounds weird, I mean for me personally, I didn't really have an emotional attachment to my job or anything but I was there for a while.It feels weird, as if something is missing. I don't think I really miss my old job itself but I miss my friends and the routine. I always had a job and being at home all the time like this is...odd. I think it will take some time for me to get used to the new routine.

The time home has been doing me good. Surprisingly, I am very busy! I clean, I cook and I take care of things. There is always something to do! My kid had an optometrist appointment yesterday. It was nice not to have to rush around the appointment because I had a job to get back to. In fact, we went shopping for Christmas decorations afterwards! We even took public transportation instead of my car!

One of the many reasons why I quit my job was because I pulled Philip out of his regular school. He was miserable over there and I was tired of feeling besieged by them. You can read more about it in this post here. It seems that since my kid didn't fit into this perfect little box, he was politely ushered out.Things are MUCH, MUCH better in the new school and no pressure to medicate! 

Since I wanted him adjusted to a new school, I did not feel comfortable having him put in the daycare program there just yet. Not after the BS he had to deal with at the other school the previous years. Seriously, it did a number on him! Now, he takes the school bus with his new friend up the street and he comes home everyday by bus too. He has time after school to play Minecraft, I am not rushed to make supper and he loves the free time after we do homework! He never had free time like that before!

I had many other reasons why I quit my job. I had many triggers for having those panic attacks but knowing that my kid is happy obviously helped calm my anxiety down. Its still there but nowhere as bad as it was!

In fact, last week, we had a parent meeting and I brought snacks. I baked cookies. I always wanted to do that but never had the time. Now I do and they were a big hit. It is nice to do those things. Surprisingly, I never thought being a stay at home mom was a lot of work but it is! I love it. I love that I have extra time with my kid, I have him with me on ped days as well as two full weeks at Christmas. I am actually looking forward for Christmas this year because I have my baby bat all to myself. In the past, I had to work in-between and always felt guilty for sending him off to my Mom's. I am sure this sentiment will change by the time the kid goes back to school after Christmas break! I also have him with me all summer. I can finally teach him how to ride a bike and take him to the pool! It was so hard to do that on the weekends! I have so much to look forward to!

So yes, I wanted to write something personal today. Life is going good and I wanted to share. ...and in case anyone is wondering, yes, there are days I wear sweat pants and a Star Wars t-shirt but I still mostly dress Goth as fuck when I am home, too! I like to think I am a bad ass mom! Seriously, the fact that I tell people "oh and I bake cookies and shit" is only testament to the fact!


6 comments:

  1. I'm glad Philip has a new school where he is happy. What a cutie he is with that tousled hair! And I'm glad you are feeling less rushed and anxious too. Sounds like this was a good move for you!

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  2. Way to go dear Sylvie! Can't wait to spend some time with you also!! Miss you!! 😽💖

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  3. nice to hear everything is working out!

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  4. Sounds like things are great for you and your kid :) For cookies, I recommend a cutout recipe and bat cookie cutters (although drops are so much easier)!

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  5. It is great you found a better school and that you’re able to be home and relax a bit and spend time with him!

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